Glad to see an entry from ya!

~Tons of love

I hope you feel better soon!

~Tons of love

I hope you feel all the way better and good luck with the job :)

Much love~

DIRTY WHORE! lol glad to know your a bit better. that sucks about job. JT has 2 interviews! woot! gonna help us greatly! got my van registered today and then lost my license! can't find it! and couldn't get inspected cause of insurance, but hey, anyways working 5 days this week, tomorrow 4-10 ttyl!! hugs!

what's up Crystal. Cant read it all right now but I'll catch up tomorrow.

Just saying howdy

You know, the other night J.T and I were watching a movie

I was all happy and silly and what not.

I went to do something or w/e

and I flipped out cause my HP book fell on my shoulder

and my room wasn't clean,

I wanted to throw everything everywhere in my room

and I was actually yelling at myself.

J.T. sat in the livingroom cause

he didn't want to say anything or do anything to make it worse.

Once I was done cleaning a bit and done kinda yelling at myself

I went and laid down in bed

5 min later J.T. comes to bed and I start to cuddle with him

like nothing was wrong,

but I scared him cause he thought I was gonna hurt him

cause I was to lazy to go into the kitchen to take care of the dustpan

so I tossed it in there.

so yeah...I actually do have those moments...

I always wanna flip out on either myself,

Matt or work.

.....

It could be stress,

or it could be like a beginning sign of it.

I mean, my family is pretty messed up

so I really wouldn't be surprised,

but as I said, whenever I wanna flip out

J.T. has me write how I'm feeling and why I'm feeling it

in a journal.

Unfortunately, I wrote a 4 1/2 page thing front and back about Matt

and it got J.T. all stressed out and sick, so now he

can't read what is on my mind cause it bothers him so much.

and if the movies arn't playing in the daytime, then maybe bowling?

and that sucks about that pizza place....

they probably just didn't get much business....

well anyways I'm gonna try to get a bit more sleep.

I've been up every 15 min since 7 am.

and I gotta go to work for 12 until 9:30

It's gonna be a sucky day today I can already see...

I need to go straight to bed when I get home too cause

I gotta work christmas day from 8-3

so I will see you on  Wed!!

*hugs*

Yeah, well I actually looked online

and I do have most of the symptoms...

but I'm going to wait until I have my vacation

and as soon as Matt moves out.

Once he's gone...

maybe my mental problems will be gone too lol

It was Matt who brought it up saying it might

and I looked online

and it made me think I might have it,

but stress makes me tired and sleep all day and

can go crazy...

so that could be it too...

who knows...

my family is known for Mental problems..

I mean look at my  brother....

look at the whole Martin family actually lol

J.T. told me that whenever I'm feeling something to write it down...

so I'm kinda keeping a journal on paper

of my mood and why I'm feeling that way.

so yeah...

anyways I shall see you on Wed.

maybe we can go to the movies

:D

I only got 20 bucks...

well 30 but being on my vaca means I wont get

tips from work lol

anyways ttyl!

*hugs*

Hell, yes. Toss a bitch fit. Damn right. *nods, firmly*

BEST WISHES hun!!

I hope you and your lovey enjoy each other but not too much as I know you

Blessed be.

Merry Christmas love!!

He is so cute! My fav is the last one!! Can't wait to have on of my own.

I do hope you feel better....

Guess what!?

I have a vacation coming up right after Christmas!

Woot!!

Maybe we can finally hang out.

Well ttyl!

*hugs*

I hope you feel better soon!

~Tons of love

Those pics were realy cute.... i hope you get to feeling better.

Jeff might be feeling a little left out with the new baby around. im sure your friends time is taken up by anthony. tell her to try to include him as much as she can, or maybe they might need some time just for them. That way he nos that she still loves him and wants him to be there with both her and anthony. 

if jeff doesn't want to do anything with the baby, doesn't want to bond or gets bad thoughts about the baby like hurting it or your friend or  something like that then he might be getting deppressed or overwhelmed. men can also get postpartum depression.

hope you feel better soon

*Boo*

Yeah, my vote would be the flu. Guess how I know. -_-. No illness has passed me over, this year, it seems.

Sorry, that I did not get back to you, about today. I was only online yesterday morning. I just read your other entry, a minute ago. *sighs* I am so bad. I am also sorry.

Also, do you like Rice Krispie Treats? I suddenly can not remember.

Awww, what a little cutie. X3~!!!!

I hope that you feel better, soon! And, when I see you, the next time, I will have that application, for you! I promise!!

well yes, it could be some sort of flu, kinda sounds like pregnancy symptoms. but i dont know if you are sexually active or not.

i hope you feel better soon tho.

and anthony is sooooooooooooo cute. he sure does have a head full of hair.

take care honey!

Hey :)  Meeting Ozzy would be so awesome!  I hope you get to meet them.  I hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow, and good luck with the job!

~Tons of love

Hey hey hey. I cant really read it all right now. But I will catch up soon. Just saying hello.

So HELLO

I'm so glad I don't have to do jury duty

that really must suck!

Pam have her kid yet?

Dude, you sooo totally need to start sleeping regularly

you don't want to end up like me,

tired as all hell,

can't function well

and that sh*tty stuff.

Well hopfully you sleep well tonight, ttyl!

*hugs*

Again I'm sorry about today a bunch of things came up.

I've been I guess depressed the past few days.

Haha, you want Pam to have that kid pop out any second!

I will work 1 year exactly tomorrow...

which means 1 week paid vacation!

Hopefully just J.T. and I.

That would be awesome and well deserved.

I'm tired, bored, lonely, sad, etc....I'm gonna go now.

I don't feel to well....

ttyl!

*hugs*

luvs ya!

byes!

Its always good to see mommy!!! Just dropping to say hi!!

SO there:)

[TBB718]

Oi. Ramen is my ever-meal, of not-so-much-choice. Is nummies.

And, sorry, again. If I had a ride, I would have been up there! <3.

Ohhh, you had better believe that it is sad...

...But, it's SO DAMN FUNNY!!!!!!!!

Hmm sounds like you have allot going on, maybe thats why you couldnt sleep. Try to clear your mind before bed tonight. MMMM Steak that truly is the one thing I do miss about eating red meat mmmm steak & eggs & orange juice now thats a meal lol

Well I hope your huney enjoys ALL of his B-day gifts....and Ido mean all

Yeah I know about clubs and stuff....if I don't have the money I don't go. If I'm tired, I don't go. Just right now it seems ok to just relax. Work sucks balls lol. I will let you know next time I have a tuesday or thursday off....which actually I think is next week...I gotta double check the schedule.

But my thoids...or something like that...my right side is slightly sticking out more than the other. The doc said it could actually be completely normal. We'll see. It's not like I'm going out every weekend...this weekend was the first in a while I think...and it was because of my birthday.

Next weekend is just to the Bowl mart possibly just to hang out and get away from the work stress and Canada, you don't need a passport yet. I might not go cause I heard they're crazier than Vermont. Besides, J.T. and I need some us going out time...like bowling or something...sounds better. I don't want to change into someone I"m not. As for people wanting Risque pics....ewww lol.

But good for you, hope it all goes well and I don't wanna know what the pics are...seriously..and that's funny about you and Michelle sleeping...I just can't do it....bothers me to sleep somewhere where I've never slept before. Ok, gotta go to bed, it's like 1:50 am and I work at 2 tomorrow...or at least I think lol byes! *hugs*

Apply Cider donuts..mmmm that sound delectable...OMG you should totally inform the head of that Dr.'s office of this incident. Thats wrong, wrong wrong....and  wow a month and a half...thats tough:)

Im sure you'll make the best of it when the time comes;) love ya girl!!

Hey, thanks for the comment :)  That doctor didn't sound like a good one, I think I'd find another one!  I hope you feel better.  The Harvest Market sounds like fun, I want some apple cider donuts!  I hope you had a great day :)  *hugs*

Tons of love--Mary

Wow that is REALLY freaky!! let us know if you find it.

Oh I love clerks 2 that part about the porch monkeys is comedic genius!!

I feel the same way about my apartment sometimes I take a week off from it because I feel like there is no point...good luck with keep it decent with a man around theres always work to do.

And I hope you have a great day as well:)

Hey, thank you so much for your comment!  I'm sorry it took me forever to get back to ya, I've been crazy busy!  Congrats on your art thingy :D  And you're so right, lifetime movies are corny but man can they suck you in lol.  I hope you're able to get a new door soon, sounds icky  Welp  thanks again for stopping by, talk to ya later :)  Have an awesome day!!

Tons of love--Mary

Hey. Sweetie, your entries are always so full of life and love and happiness. How DO you do it:) Anyhow sounds like tons of stuff to celebrate, did you buy a new house!?!? fill me in.

And DO have a wonderful weekend.

PS thanks for the loving advice I take heed to keep it coming:)

Hey, thank you so much for the comment!  This is a really neat idea.  Ok Imma find some lyrics...

Eric Hutchinson -Ok It's Alright With Me

Ok, it's alright with me

Some things are just meant to be

It never comes easily

and when it does

I'm already gone

I'm practically never still

More likely to move until

I end up alone at will

My life continues inching along

I love his music :)  I hope you have an awesome day girl!

xx

i like! What comes to mind for me is a gospel song

oh lord my God

When i in awesome wonder

consider all, the world Thy hands have made

I see the stars, I hear the mighty thunder

Thy power throughout the universe displayed

Then sings my soul, my savior God to Thee

How great thow art, how great thow art

[eagle]

that is so weird. I don't remember where the book is, or if I still have it. You gotta put it on that wrench looking thing, almost the last one and that is the functions, erm...well, let me try to find the book that goes with it. But that is REALLY weird. Guess what!! I got a kitten!! Her name is Kaly. She's ADORABLE!! But she has flees....arg...anyways, gotta go, I'll look for that book while I clean.

Hey!  Thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words.  I definitely needed them!  How are you?!  I hope your migraine has went away, oh how I despise those things!  I'm glad you are getting customers for your Art thingy :)  I hope you have an awesome day tomorrow, talk to ya later!

Tons of love--Mary

You're welcome....I got pulled over today...no insurance...pulled over cause my headlight was out...and then I got caught with no insurance...so I'm kinda going crazy...I said I had some when I didn't. I have some now though thanks A FREAKIN LOT to J.T. my hero :D....so yeah....I dunno what's going to happen now...*hopefully* I won't get in trouble....we'll see....oh man this is going to suck...never drive ok? lol...well gotta go to bed, got a crazy day at work tomorrow...which if my feelings are correct, which usually they are, I'm not going to have a good day at all......well have a good night! *hugs* ttyl!

Yeah last night I dreamed about you and you were tan.

But I forgot the camera and yearbook.

And then I remembered that you

asked to borrow it.

I will text ya when I'm on my way.

I gotta pee first and brush my hair

and get socks and shoes on.

Bills do totally suck!

Ok, gotta get the yearbook and camera before I forget.

So I shall see ya in a few hours ish....

ttyl!!!

*hugs*

Yay!

You and me again on Tuesday!!

I'll be at my mom and dad's for the night.

A few nights ago J.T. told me about him

hanging with Amanda.

So I'm staying the night at my mom and dad's.

Same place to pick you up?

and that's great you had a good time at the function.

I think Uncle Ricky is picking me up to go to the

Echo, but Aunt Renee said he's heading out

at 12:30 and here it is almost 1:30

so I dunno if they're getting me or not.

I'd rather not cause I'm not feeling great

and I'm in pain,

but I hate turning people down.

hmm..

anyways ttyl!

*hugs*

Yayness!! We hang today!!

Had a long serious chat with J.T. last night.

He still didn't say anything about Amanda.

I brought up the fact that I want him to see his friends

and that I just want to be told what's going on.

Not to ask permission,

but to just know what's going on so I don't freak out

lol

understandable right?

I also said that Not telling me things is almost like lying to me.

So you think that would get to his head?

In the next few days

I'll ask him what he wants to do next Monday.

As long as I get to hang with you on Tuesdays.

We'll see what he says.

The only thing I'm worried about is that

he said "Part with her for one night"

does that mean I leave him there or what?

Anyways, we'll have Matt back on Friday

and I should be starting at the end of the week.

Ok, gotta go, I'll text ya to let ya know...

We're going to go

and pay rent

and get some foodage.

Yummy.

So hopefully I'll be there around 11:30

ok?

Later!

*hugs*

Tuesday is great!....

I dunno if I'll have any moolah though....

Which sucks in a way....

cause my rent ...

it's late, though I called my landlord to let him know.

So I gotta pay it tomorrow...

I don't know how much I made,

and arg...

stupid rent lol

but yep

and yesssss...

very nice to just be the 2 of us.

I can actually keep my door open

which I hate closed.

Sex ANYTIME I want lol

without having to worry about

shutting the door...

being as loud as I want.

I can do more things....

we'll see how things go..

so yep!

TUESDAY IT IS!!

*hugs*

Have fun!

<3

From.Mrs.Anita Adams
Abidjan Cote d'Ivoire
Christ Bethel Hospital
Des Martyrs 44.Avenue
06BP.7452 Abidjan RCI
E-mail:(mrsanita_adams227@yahoo.fr)

Dearest Beloved Friend ,

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When my late husband was alive he deposited the sum of $8.700 Million with a  Bank in Cote D lvoire. Presently this money is still in the custody of the  Bank here in Cote DIvoire.My Doctor told me that it is very likely i will  die within the next 3 months due to A Blood cancer {Leukamia}. It has defiled all forms of medical treatment, and right now I have only about a few months to live,according to medical experts.

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God  be with you.

Mrs. Anita Adams Johnson

I have book 6 Crystal!!

We watched Harry Potter 5 today

:D

They missed a bunch of sh*t...

I was a little pissed.

I'm getting my hair trimmed next tuesday between 4-6 pm

at Yaya's...

the one who did my hair last time almost 2 years ago.

Tomorrow gonna get a game hopefully.

Sudeki

For XBox

Great game.

Katie is here with me right now.

Bills are being a pain right now.

I'm slowly giving in to J.T. helping me.

Which is great.

Cause these next 2 weeks are gonna suck...

I sooo want an XBox...

so hopefully soon.

..........

we'll see.

So anyways!!

Glad all is well...

and DON'T f***ING TELL ME WHAT HAPPENS IN BOOK 7 OR I WILL KILL YOU!!

kidding....

maybe lol

but seriously please don't tell me.

That totally will ruin it for me...

ok gotta get to sleep or do something.

The guys are outside possibly trying to get away

from Katie's smelling ass...

she's farting...

been doing that half the day....

really loud and smelly like...

so anyways....

ttyl huggies luvs ya byes!

ello!! Sorry again about yesterday. I still have to get drums and serpentine pipes for my car, then it should be ALLLLLL gooooooood. Hopefully. I saw your mom and your aunt the other day. They came to my store. Your mom saw my nametag and was like Congrats and she was all happy for me and everything. Weird I thought, but hey, whatever. Though she never told me anything about her moving into an apartment. Gas went down to $2.99 so cool huh? Anyways, hope all is well and sooooo sorry havent' gotten in contact with you. *hugs* and miss you lots, ttyl huggies luvs ya byes!

Alright. Last night I was talking with J.T. and he was saying how no matter if he got his card in the mail or not, he's coming home with me Saturday.

Then I said something that's been on my mind the entire week. If I could have had him before he got the card and when his card came in the mail, me bringing him back down there to get it, why couldn't I have gotten him sooner.

I've asked him and asked him to come back home with me earlier and he said just one more day just one more day and that he wont come home with me till he gets it.

And so last night he said whether he has it or not he's coming home with me...so I kinda made an argument about that...I mean come on, why didn't he just let me have him sooner?

I would have made the extra trip to St. A just to have him sooner, but no.

So I was kinda pissed at him and I told him he's going to stay there until  his card came in the mail cause that's what his plan was in the first place and so he kept telling me he's not going to wait any longer.

But I told him he's gotta cause it was his plan and today I work from noon till 8 cause he said he wanted to come back today...and Saturday I work from 8 am till 4 pm so either way he's gonna have to wait.

Also I have Monday off, so I'll be down there Monday, and I'll be off my period then. My Period tends to make everything worse no matter how hard I try to make things better....

So here I am regretting telling him to stay there longer when I could have had him sooner....

So I'm not going to be in that good of a mood for a few more days :*(

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one I see

V is very very extraordinary

E is even more than anyone that you adore.

HAPPY 100TH ENTRY! lol, seriously!! You seem to see where we are most of the time...it was kinda creepy. We were wondering how you saw my car, didn't think that you went up that way....that's why it was weird lol. I'm still tired. It's 7 am, couldn't sleep again last night. Horrible. Took the test. Negative. So now I gotta wait for T.O.M. and if he doesn't show up...then that would be weird and I'd HAVE to go to the doctors to see what's up. But...sooo much lately....ALL DAY yesterday, I saw a baby or a little one and I'd go awwww look at her!! or awwww look at him!!....

soooo.....J.T.'s like, you want one now don't you. And unfortunately I do. But we're not financially ready...why do I want one so much now?? I don't know I"m soooo confused. Anyways, today I am going to go with my mom to the mall cause she wants her nails done. J.T. wants to come too...I unno why. But I gotta wait for my check to get at the store, seeing how it's monday I'm sure Todd is gonna take his sweet time. I need it now...for the cell bill and GAS!! I'm just about empty lol

anyways, hope your nose gets better! I'm gonna post some pics I took lol later friendsies!!

huggies luvs ya byes!

Oh!  Thank you so much for that tip!!  And best of luck to you with the sales.  Blessings to you :)

<3Mary

I'm not a ballsack lol. That sucks no one wants your stuff. I update!! haha, just I've been *ahem* preoccupied. *yawn* It's hot in here dude!! haha ttyl!! huggies luvs ya byes!

hmmmm

im going to have to pass on the skirt

sorry

you should try ebay

hmmmm

as weird as this may sound

i may be able to take the pink skirt off your hands

depending on the size

and the price you are asking for xD

[TheEmoUnicorn]

Thanks!  My hair turned out really good so I'm happy :)  I hope you're having an awesome day!  Ttyl

<3

Ahh that's horrible!  I'm so sorry to hear that.  I hope you start to feel comfortable in your home soon.  And good luck with selling stuff!

Lots of love~

Thanks :)  Yeah I will make sure I eat before haha.  Man it's sometimes hard to be self-controlled but Imma do it!  I hope you have a wonderful weekend and talk to ya later :D

Tons of love~

Photoshop is pretty friggin expensive! It's worth every penny though, you can do just about anything with it. Looking forward to checking out that site you were telling me about! Thanks!!

Luvvins.

Enna

[fsmfollower]

Sorry to hear you're having money problems. I sooo know what you mean! It really really really sucks!! If I had enough money I'd help you out....but unfortunately I'm having problems myself. Arg. Hope your weekend was great though...well besides the service...*hugs* for that. TTYL!! Huggies luvs ya byes!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE the new tattoo!! and OMG! sorry to hear they passed!! *hugs* yes....cuddling is sooo nice. I may or may not be able to hang with you Tuesday...work is all crazy!! but anyways lol my dad said for my 21st birthday he's taking me out to get hammered...that's exactly what he said!! I'm like geesh!! There is a total of....1.....2.....3.....4....at LEAST 5 people who want me to get wasted...arg...

I hate parties too...so yeah...anyways...gotta show off my mad driving skills on PS2 lol so yeah ttyl!! huggies luvs yas byes!!!

I love your tattoo!  And I'm really sorry to hear about your friends, I hope you find much comfort during this. 

Tons of love--Mary

Happy Birthday Crystal!!  I hope you have the best day ever, and many best wishes to you :)

Tons of love--Mary

I have to work tomorrow till noon...so before I pick up J.T. I'm gonna drop off your card...couldn't get ya anything...not yet anyways...I feel so bad...but right now money is extremely tight cause I keep forgetting about the damn health insurance..which I don't need, but it's good for a just in case thing...so when I have enough...you are DEFINATELY getting something!! *hugs* and HAPPY EARLY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!! LOVE YOUR BESTEST FRIEND!! haha...I hope lol *hugs*

~Carrie

Thank you very much for the advice the other night!  And for the congrats teehee :)  I'm still getting around to the ABC thing, I'll probably do it when I'm bored!  Talk to ya later :)

Tons of love~

Aw that's a really cute and cool idea!  I might just do it!  I hope you're having a wonderful day :)

Tons of love~

Hey!  Thank you for your comments :D  I'm glad work wasn't too bad for ya!  That's really awesome about the tattoo!  I think I'm definitely going to get a few tiny tattoos but not for awhile.  But have fun!  Ttyl :D

Tons of love~

AHA, you have unwittingly narrowed it down when you said "add some color" that means it must be one of the black ones! I will figure you out! lol. I hope all goes well for you, have FUN!!

Enna